I always think aboout it, how I wish I could live in one single solitary moment, and how even now it seems unfair that it all vanished and everything in my life restarted...That moment...Hell even that time, that almost perfect year...Too bad it ended the way it did. I mean who knows how I'd be now, maybe Id sill have ambition, a sense of direction, feel like I have more purpose than I have now... But when you lose your heart, and have to rewire it, thats not all that shifts in shape and feeling, your mind, your perspective...In the end I know that even after years my mind wont let go of this optimistic views that one day it will all return...But jus because I want something back, dosent mean itll just happen...But Ill never stop wanting...Never stop hoping, praying to any one out there who will respond...I guess after change...All Ive had is hope...